hi all – Meredith here.
I hope you are embarking on the new work week refreshed and that you’ve got turkey sandwiches packed for your lunch today (I don’t, but then I spent the weekend elsewhere). I also hope that wherever you were this weekend, the weather was fabulous. On Saturday I was in Halifax, enjoying ocean breezes and 26C weather (I went for a walk with some friends at a place called Duncan’s Cove), and by Sunday afternoon I was back in Ottawa where I crashed a Thanksgiving dinner hosted by the friend-of-a-friend because VIA didn’t have any trains going back to Kingston that evening.
(Here, for your amusement, is a picture I snapped at Duncan’s Cove on Saturday):
I arrived back here in Kingston yesterday afternoon. A friend picked me up at the train station and promptly whisked me back to her place where she made us gin and tonics that we sipped by the lake. Then I crashed yet another thanksgiving dinner feast, which was unexpected and fun!
But hey- fun’s over. Why?
BECAUSE I AM DEFENDING MY THESIS THIS WEEK!
Whoa. As I’ve written before — anyone who has been following along for the last couple of years will probably be as surprised as I am that I’ve made it to this point. I’m not really sure what I should be doing to prepare. Those who have done this kind of thing before have assured me that I only need to know my material inside and out (which I suppose I do, after hanging out with it for the last year and a bit!) and get ready to “have a conversation” about my work and my research with my committee. Easy, right?
I’ve been joking that my biggest struggle (I feel like I’ve confessed this before – but heck, let’s do it again!) is going to be to not cry. I’m a little worried about bursting into tears due to a serious case of imposter syndrome (ie. not feeling I am a worthy academic). I’m also going to be mindful not to go into the session saying sheepish things about how I probably haven’t done enough reading/writing/research/thinking to really merit this degree.
Nope, instead I am going to channel my inner confident-person and go into the defence full of enthusiasm and vigour (even if it IS at 8:30am on Thursday morning!).
whew! It’s still a little daunting, but I’m sure it’s going to be ok (I met someone in Halifax last week who told me that she cried during her defence, and she still passed!). I’ll write again on Friday to let you all know how it goes…